Surrendering to Resistence

One of my new goals is to stop resisting to changes, to stop being my old self and allow new and refreshing changes and updates to happen, a 2.0 version of myself if you will.

In order to fulfill this plan I have stabilised that I will start every day, from now on, taking an hour or two before my day start with clients and to-do lists, and take time to do things for myself, to feed my soul, body and mind with things that's nourish and helps me grow as a person, as a woman, as a being. In order to achieve this goal I am waking up earlier than usual so I can accommodate this to my schedule without interfering with my regular daily activities.

My intention is to start the day with some positive readings, songs, relaxation and meditation. Yes I can do it all, I just manage the time. When I have two hours I take half hour for each task, some days I just have an hour then I just adapt and spend 15 minutes on each task.

On my search to enlighthenment and improvement I have found many sites and blogs that helped me to look inward and see the person I was, what I didn't like and take the innitiative to change it. I am, after all, the only person I can truly change.

Anyhow one of the sites I found, has thoughts that inspires me and sets the background for my mind to flow and self-analyze itself. It's called Tiny Tiny Buddha. You will see many of their posts, if not completely reposted, inspired by the thoughts their posts have infused my mind with on this intriguing journey to my self awakening. Reading, listening and surrounding yourself with positive thinking and energy helps tremendously on this path. Find your way, whatever that migh be and hold on to it. We all need some kind of suport when we start doing something new, it might be awkward, uncomfortable even but like in anything in life, practice makes perfect and the comfortable and control of your thoughts and feeling can be learned and performed by anyone that really wants to change themselves and I do belileve in that truth. So here I am, baby steps, hold on to all the suport I can to keep my legs straight and avoid to fall back into the whole I am finally trying to get out of.

I am a believer that life gives us clues and signs everywhere, if only we are willing to open your eyes, silence your mind and listen to them. I grab onto my clues and try diligently to change the pattern of my own life, to make it from a patchwork of circumstances and accidental events into something that I can control and change the ending. It surprises me to see how the words and thought I need in order to evolve comes to me from all types of different resources and people. It surprises me still to see that whatever was that I was thinking the days or nights before, what the next step would be then I get the idea, the clue I was looking for on a song, on a blog, on a conversation with a friend.

This is my life, I am the author of this adventure and I have the power, all inside myself, to change the ending to a happy and fulfilling ending, to make it exactly what I want it to be.

So, this is an insert of the blog I read this morning.

How often have we tried to control and confine life, living according to old rules, ideas, and expectations? I've wasted so much time and energy on proving I was right, on resisting change, and trying to hold on to the past long after it was time to let it go. It took me a long time to become conscious that another way was possible - a more flexible and easy way to approach life. I have learned that there is a great power in living in the flow.

Like a river, the life force must find its own way. There is something deep within that urges us to grow and evolve, to expand and to move beyond the limits of the way we were. We grow and evolve through different stages of life. Though a mother may adore the cuddly child, the nature of childhood is growth, expansion, and movement toward adulthood. It would be unnatural to try to stop the child from growing into an adult. As adults, we, too, are always going through stages of growth and change. Time moves on even when we wish it would stand still. The wisest course of action is to savor the moment and then release it, trusting that the next moment will bring its own gifts into our lives.

Sometimes we try to force things to happen. Yet our anxiety and urgency block the very flow we desire. The ego loves to control, confine, define. But freedom of the spirit moves according to a deeper wisdom.

'The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going.'

Flowing with life is not merely a passive allowing. Just as a farmer prepares the soil, plants the seeds, waters and cultivates the land, and does his daily work, so we do what we can do to create the optimum conditions for what we desire. It is the life force within the seed and the seed's partnership with the elements that create the magic of growth and fruition. The farmer does not have to stand in the field, grunting and groaning, trying to make the seeds grow. He plants the seeds and trust its nature to fulfill its destiny. We too, can plant and cultivate our seeds of faith and watch them grow according to a greater wisdom than we can yet imagine.

The more we resist, the harder life is. If we are willing to be flexible and open, we'll discover a gentle strength greater than we could have imagined in our earlier power struggles. Surrender to resistance. Go with the flow. And let it lead us into a more fulfilling adventures.

'Those who don't feel this life pulling them like a river, those who don't drink dawn like a cup of spring water or take in a sunset like supper, those who don't want to change, let them sleep.' Rumi

N. Cardoso May/2010